monday musings or why i love fall and hate bills

I hate when things like bills get in the way and your new job doesn't pay you for 3 weeks and you have to decide between your phone and the internet and you choose the phone because it's an iphone and you have the internet but it still is annoying to try and write a blog post on it.

I also hate when time and life get in the way and you don't get to read peoples amazing posts and comment.

I also hate not having cable and missing all my shows RIGHT before the True Blood finale and the One Tree Hill premiere.

My job is something I don't hate because while the pay is low, the people are great and the time flies by. I work mostly nights about 30 hours a week and I either need another part time time or a great full time job.

Oh! The fabulous Marta Acosta sent me a copy of her new book out September 28 called Haunted Honeymoon. I will be writing a post tomorrow about it, the other book she sent me, and how fabulous she is!

So honestly, I LOVE fall. Adore it. Scarves, come out, cute cardigans and sweaters, hot chocolate, brisk weather that is perfect for curling up with my pups and a good book. I would say I miss my flip flops but I don't because those babies don't get put away until the first snow and even then I wear them around my house. Although this year I'm thinking about slippers maybe? Fall clothes are pretty easy for me but what's been on my mind are what pajamas I am going to wear.

Usually I sleep naked because that's comfortable and I get hot easily and clothes tend to bother me when I sleep and who doesn't feel sexy sleeping naked? The thing is, it does get cold and it's SO much harder to get out of bed when it's freezing. This morning I was pondering what I should do and what pajamas to get while in bed playing Luxor on my iphone which is completely addicting.

Do I get a cute VS pajama set with pants and a tank top? or the VS long sleeved set? Or the set with shorts? Or a nightgown? Or flannels? I like the idea of a night gown but I think I'm leaning towards the VS Dreamer Flannel Pajama, or the VS Pillow Talk Tank pajama. I looked at Gap online and I love the camis and tanks so mixing and matching could be an option. (I also REALLY want to try their jean leggings but with the $ situation, probably not happening).

I think pajamas somehow signify to myself that I am a grown up in my apartment with bills and dogs and responsibilities. It also signifies hope that I want nice pjs for myself and perhaps a future man who stays over and could potentially call himself my boyfriend.

What kind of pajamas do you guys wear? Any suggestions?

xoxoxo
Veronica

Also, as I'm writing this at the library I am privy to the people next to me, the first who talked about doing 5 months in the big house for parole violateion and the next guy who is listening to "Needles and Pins", I'm just glad its a song I like since I can hear it clearly...

Things I Hate to Love (or why I hate spending but love buying these things)

So I hate spending money but love buying things. After my horrible last week I decided to have a very good week this week. So far that has meant going to the library and reading a ton of books and playing with my pups and talking to the best friend and seeing friends at a neighborhood bar and seeing about a gillion tweets about brand ambassadors and posts about freebies, which got me thinking. What would I love to represent? What things are my must have's or what am I dying to try?

So instead of things I really hate I'm going to share all the things I love and why I don't hate them. Cause its our blog and we'll love things if we want to.

smashboxx's camera ready full coverage concealer

When I saw Betty for her birthday we went shopping at the Sephora counter and I found this amazing product. Well the girl working found it and Betty convinced me to get it since it really made such a huge difference and I thank her daily because of it. I hate under eye bags and I have them worse than Sookie has people trying to kill her. This product goes everywhere with me and for $18 I consider it a huge steal. It also works great on any small pimples and after my first weeks of working out where I was breaking out like a teenager, it saved my life. It goes on easy and you only need a small amount so it lasts a while. I can't wait to try their tinted moisturizer.

ikea...everything

I just bought a new duvet, comforter, end of the bed blanket/matching pillow, lamps, and curtains and I am loving my bedroom. My Dad just bought an entire kitchen from there so we've been there like once a week for the last month. Duvets are kind of my new thing because my older dog has a tendency to pee on my bed when she's mad and it makes washing things a lot easier. Also just in general washing is easier and it gives me more versatility. So Ikea, I might hate your parking lot but I love everything else and can't wait to use you for my dining room.

gap jean jacket

I might not be a brand ambassador and get this for free but I'm still rocking the gap jean jacket I've had for years and it has not let me down. I wore it last fall over a black old navy tank dress when I met my crush and it was a hit. I pretty much love wearing it over any dress and when I work office jobs I loved pairing it with a skirt or cute pants. The versatility is such a plus (although you will never catch me rocking the double denim look). Fall is a top season for me and this jacket is honestly the best accessory to have along with a cute and rugged man to hold hands with and pick pumpkins. If I was working I would definitely have my eye on a new classic one because everyone knows Gap does denim the best. Also, a guy in a jean jacket? makes. me. swoon. Reminds me of an old high school flame that worked at a gap and to this day makes the jacket look sinfully delicious.

The only thing I hate? That its too hot to start wearing it.

The Others Series and The Casa Dracula Series, oh and the NightWorld!!

The Others is a series about vampires, shape-shifters, werewolves that stands out in a suddenly over crowded genre. It's more mature than Twilight and has more classic romance style than the Sookie books (with less mystery/suspense ). The writing is good but I'm mostly tuning in for the steamy sex scenes. The books are scorching hot, funny, and a bit ridiculous but overall a total pleasure to read. Not all books can be as good as Sookie but that doesn't mean they can't be enjoyable. I like books where characters crossover and I admit it, I'm a series addict. So if you want romance, supernatural, sex, and a fast read, go for it.

The Casa Dracula series is all about the laughs. Marta Acosta's writing is funny, playful, and it's honestly nice to see a non white heroine. Milagro De Los Santos is sassy, smart, and someone you want to be friends with. The next book Haunted Honeymoon comes out in September and I can't wait. Honestly, with all the series vamp books, its so fun to read something silly, intelligent, and full of Spanish words with pop culture references.

LJ Smith was really before Stephanie Meyers and really started the teen vampire love books, chaste but romantic, and forbidden love. She created The Vampire Diaries and a few other series which people love. Her Nightworld series deal with soulmates and obviously the paranormal. Much better writing than Twilight although much shorter novels. I love the Twilight series but seriously who didn't cringe at Stephanie Meyers writing. The only thing worse is KStews ridiculous portrayal of Bella. {Siderant: Bella in the books is clumsy but sweet,not an antisocial grump who's just rude}

With all the good books, I only hate that I have to wait for more to come out.

I am really debating on doing this. I really wish I had the $500 so I could travel to all the places in the US I want to see for the first time or where friends are like: Colorado, DC, Seattle, Miami, Texas. Dear Jetblue, you can totally sponsor me to do this and let me blog about all the random cities and the awesomeness of this promotion. I really hate not having the money since I most definitely have the free time and like flying.

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Sometimes it's nice to hate to love things. I hate that I love Teen Mom, Dunkin Donuts at 2am, spending money I shouldn't on things for my dogs, Tara the last few episodes of True Blood, and the Panda Express drive thru.

What are some things you guys hate to love?

Love,
Veronica

Shenanigans or how I hate fear and love the gym.

I hate fear. {Not the awesome movie with my love Mark Wahlburg (Nicole 4 eva)}but I hate being afraid.

A few years ago, I used to be afraid to go into a grocery store by myself. I hated shopping alone and going to the library. I always needed someone with me or I just wouldn't go. Go to the gym? Forget it. Have a movie date with myself? Not a chance. Eat alone in a restaurant? You must be kidding.

I walked my dogs today and I tried to figure out if I had always been afraid. Was it before or after dating a volatile bi polar bf who got too happy with his fists and had to be left? I know that during that time I was a completely different person and that I definitely couldn't do anything alone. I tried to remember my life before that and I know that I may have been less afraid of people but I was still extremely self conscious.

I hated my fear of being alone in public. Then I did something and took control of my life.

I surrounded myself with love. With my best friend. With people who wanted the best for me. I started loving myself and the last few years have been nothing short of amazing.

I sat in the pool today reading a book and relaxing after an hour workout with a personal trainer and I.felt.amazing. I swam laps for an hour yesterday and floated on my back in a pool of complete strangers and felt alive. I go anywhere I want and do what I want and even when I was scared to workout and perhaps fail at the exercises I didn't stop. I just shrugged it off and did what I had to do.

I mean Harry Potter had it right when what he feared the most was fear itself. So while he got his patronus, I got my self confidence back and we got rid of fear.

Without fear I have room to love alot of things.

I am currently loving:

Panera's lemonade, tuna salad on multi grain, and an apple for a side. When I feel like a good meal, I head on over with a book and have the most relaxing lunch/dinner. They post the calories so I know what I'm eating and it helps me make responsible choices.

Buying books from the library. Just picked up Water for Elephants, The Time Travelers Wife, and a bunch of Alice Hoffman novels in perfect condition. For a $1 I'm getting new books and helping the library. Seriously they put out a ton of new books by a ton of authors so it's a money saver and helpful at the same time.

Going to the gym. What?? Loving it? Why yes, I am. I love to sweat. I love seeing results and I love that I'm giving my body love. With Matt, Rachel, Steph, Alexa, and so many others getting in shape, it feels great knowing we're all trying to be healthy and feel good. I recently got a trainer and whileI might hate on her some days, I will pretty much hate how much I love her for helping me.

True Blood. {the link is to my fav fan site} I seriously can't get enough of this show. This week having Sookie say "Shut the fuck up", Eric's fantasy of them, Bill actually being sexy at the end, and the yumminess of Alcide plus Layfayette being all tough after Eric saves him. Awesome. Even better? Someone finally taping and shutting Tara's mouth up.

So at the end of the day, it's about learning and knowing who you are. I hate people who are rude to the customer service industry, don't say please and thank you, who leave a mess at restaurants and don't tip. I love my local librarians, my best friend, cool whip, horses, and pretty colored toe nails.

Life is about balance and finding what works.

xoxo

Veronica

I hate the high road: or why being morally superior can suck

{What Up with That Wednesday is now in session!}

I hate taking the high road. You know, the road where you do the right thing but somehow the other person gets all the rewards? I know that in the end karma is a bitch and blah blah they'll get what they deserve but it still isn't fun watching a completely undeserving person get rewarded for well, being a jerk.

I hate the ex friend who talked CRAZY shit about me to a ton of people which was all lies. He was privately a VERY different person that most people saw him as and really, a big fake. I took the high road and didn't spill all the secrets that would have burned him socially and professionally. When people hate me because of him it gets me really upset. I feel like screaming and shouting and throwing a tantrum and letting them know how much shit their "friend" talked about them but what's the use? People have to figure things out for themselves.

I hate the ex boyfriend who is a spoiled brat who treats everyone horrible but is so charming everyone forgives him. The guy who lies to everyone, who is lazy, who can never be depended on but yet somehow everyone knows this and can't stand him but when you're in the room with him you forget it all. I hate that I worked so hard and people respect me more but still hang out with him. I hate that at the end of the day when I could do a lot of things to him I don't because I'm just not vindictive.

I hate having the power to really mess up someones life they way they've hurt mine or someone I've loved yet don't because I am a person who doesn't stoop that low. I hate feeling angry when I know I should feel good about myself and my decisions. I suppose I feel saltier that a bag of salt n' vinegar chips but sometimes I can't help it. It is really frustrating to work hard and watch people cheat and lie and get rewards based on that.

I also hate people who have 15 items and still go in the 10 items of less check out lane.

I hate people who can't decide for themselves how they feel about a person and rely on other people.

I hate feeling about bad about people not worth my time.

I hate waiting a week for True Blood and all summer for more Glee.

But things I love?

@LivitLuvit, in the @MTVTJ search for MTV’s 1st Twitter Jockey! #zyncmtvtj. Follow her!

Love,

Veronica